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The Truth Behind This Picture… Mom exposed by her kids for what she really looks like. #BodyPositive


Flipping through the pictures on my phone, I see it…

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My first reaction is shock. Who took this hideous picture of me?

Self-loathing and disgust swell up and threaten to bring me to tears.

Just as I am about to hit delete, my boy walks in the room.

“Do you know anything about this picture?” I ask him.

I turn the screen so he can see it. He smiles huge.

“I took that of you in Tahoe,” he says. “You looked so beautiful laying there. I couldn’t help it mom.”

“You need to ask me before using my phone to take pictures,” I say.

“I know,” he says. “But mom, seriously, look how pretty you look?”

I look at the picture again and try to see what he sees.

My daughter walks over and takes a look.

“That could be a postcard mom,” she says smiling. “You’re so beautiful. I love it.”

I take a deep breath.

This is exactly what I needed.

My default mode is to see and focus on the flaws and imperfections. I’m starting to see a bit more.

I still see my dimply, fat thighs.

I also see a mom collapsed on the shore that just explored the lake for hours with her children.

I still see chubby arms.

I also see the arms of a mom that just helped her kids across the rocks and hot sand so their feet wouldn’t hurt.

I still see a fat woman wearing a black dress bathing suit to try to hide her weight issue.

I also see an adventurous mom that loves her children something fierce.

Like many women, I have struggled with my weight most of my life. It’s not something that will ever go away for me. I don’t have a naturally slim body. Never have.

Right now I’m the heaviest I’ve been in 10 years. Yet…

I have not let my weight stop me this time. I am wearing tank tops, sundresses and bathing suits in public. I’m running around playing with my kids this summer and I sometimes even feel attractive.

Yes. You heard me.

“I feel pretty. Oh so pretty. I feel pretty, and witty and bright.”

Well…not exactly. But something like that.

Is it because I’m getting older? Is it that I have more to worry about than just how I look? Or maybe it’s because my kids look at me with such adoring eyes.

Really, it doesn’t matter.

I don’t hate my body anymore.

That’s huge for me to admit and hard to even wrap my mind around.

I’m not giving up on exercising and getting healthy. Those are things I will continue to strive for because I want to be around awhile.

Right now though, I just want to love my body where it is. I want it to be OK to see myself the way my kids do.

Thank you kids.

* Here is another “secret” picture the kids took of me on our day trip to the beach.

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Source: Bridgette Tales

Sleepy Moose

Death is the end… of itself


Some say that death is not the end but only the beginning. I say that death is indeed the end. But it is a self-destructive end. That is to say that death is the end of itself, or at least the illusion of. You see, death is the biggest misconception of life. Death is to birth as dry is to wet, but in both instances the substance merely changes form and location, it does not cease to exist entirely. Just as water cannot remain in place when it evaporates, so too the soul cannot remain bound to this earth once it releases itself of its bodily bonds. The life force within is then free to explore and experience the ethereal realms of existence which are open to it at that time. It will eventually experience change again and again, though not as extreme an idea as “death”, it merely unshrouds itself further and further until eventually the entire illusionary field in which it bathed has been let go until finally it “returns to source”, which only means it has dropped its subjective perspective and remembered the Truth of One.

“God is Life. Life is All. All is One.”

Pleasant awakenings.

Sleepy Moose

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Do one believe the road signs there is no one way if it's your truth then its the right way there are many paths beyond the rules of limited thinking trust your instincts

Paths are many Truth is ONE

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Sexercise! It’s Hotter than Hot Yoga!


Would you like to improve your mental and physical health while also improving the quality of your sex life too? In fact it’s quite easy. They’re all related, and if you heed and follow the information below, you too can lead a happy and fulfilling life in and out of the bedroom. Studies have shown that yoga and meditation can significantly improve your sex life too, as well as every other aspect of your daily routine.

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Heart of Soul


The Heart of Soul is pure and true,
it knows no misconception
of love and life, of place and time,
because the heart is free of mind,
of his and hers and yours and mine,
its purpose is to know the sign
of sacred geometrical design
that shines from deep within creation
has no beginning, no limitation.
God is Life and Life is All and All is One
when all is done, when all shall fall and know the sun,
when suns shall crack and split and pour,
when darkness envelops the space once more
allowing peace and harmony to reign
upon the Soul of Man again.
Then and only then shall be
the truth which only Heart can see
that he is she as you are me
and We Are One and all is free.

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